Saturday, October 29, 2005

~*...infinite possibilities of consciousness...*~

gawd i love halloween weekend. its the only time of year where everyone gets into the spirit of dressing up their personality. people are encouraged to be creative, and express that creativity through dress up. man is it ever fun.

for the past few years, my friend bev has done my make up for halloween. when it comes down to painting my face, having an artist do the job has always been my first choice. and bev is a talented artist. she has done my makeup and she's even painted my hair. about 5 years ago, i had an idea for a hair style, and bev was the artist to do the job. she ended up taking a bottle of blondissma, and then painting it on my shaved head. that hairstyle was one of my favourites.

two years ago, bev painted on my face what would end up being a style of makeup that i would repeat often. inspired by bladerunner, bev painted a straight red line across my face at halloween. i'm not sure exactly what i was that year, maybe a demon, but it was fun to get dressed up. who says you have to be something for halloween? costumes imply that you are pretending to be something that you are not...but what you pretend to be you are. i outfitted my personality.

this year i decided to rework an old outfit...the secret is to accessorize. i wore a similar outfit to the one i wore to the episode 3 premiere: bondage skirt, red sleeveless top, dark dredi robe. i reinvented the old outfit with makeup, thanks to bev, and red ribbon wrapped down my right arm. inspired by a z!nk magazine photo essay on the cast of characters in cirque du soleil's ka, playing at the mgm grand in las vegas, bev and i took the design further. it took a while to finish the piece of art on my face, but it was well worth it. there's something fascinating about seeing yourself differently, whether it be a new outfit, a new haircut, or makeup on your face. what's more fascinating about makeup is that i am not really aware of the design unless i'm looking in a mirror. its like i forget that i have it on, cause its not staring me in the face. that's when other people become my mirror. how i look is given shape by what i trigger in other people, and their reactions to me remind me that "hey, my face is painted." when i get pix of how my makeup turned out from bev (and anyone who took pix that night), i'll post them on my messageboard (coming very very soon). yah, its tough not having a camera :(

my party destination was the elmocombo on spadina for the lorin bassnectar and wasabi collective jam. lorin plays a unique fusion of hip hop, broken beat, breaks, and psychelic music that he describes as psyhop, freakbeat, and bassalistik majik. whatever you want to call it, i am always impressed by the sounds he creates. i am a big hip hop fan, so hearing a freaky psychedelic perspective on the hip hop sound comforts me.

my krew for the night included my roommate jimmie, his best friend norm, and my boy patrick who came in from london. we arrived at the elmo just after midnight. lorin was playing, and the place was bumpin. lots of people out in costume, and phat beats to shake my ass to. there's something about a hip hop beat that grabs my soul and forces me to dance, and lorin delivered. by the end of the night my feet were sore from dancing so much. i love nights like this. here is the party review on tribe if you're interested.

after the party, my friend laurien and pat came back to my place to chill out. we ended up watching a movie called "what the bleep do we know". its kind of a documentary, story, visual fx fusion of a film that challenges you to rekognize and explore the endless possibilities for altering your everyday reality. imagine getting a bunch or quantum physicists together talking about reality and human consciousness. here's a synopsis from the official site:

WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW?! is a new type of film. It is part documentary, part story, and part elaborate and inspiring visual effects and animations. The protagonist, Amanda, played by Marlee Matlin, finds herself in a fantastic Alice in Wonderland experience when her daily, uninspired life literally begins to unravel, revealing the uncertain world of the quantum field hidden behind what we consider to be our normal, waking reality.

She is literally plunged into a swirl of chaotic occurrences, while the characters she encounters on this odyssey reveal the deeper, hidden knowledge she doesn't even realize she has asked for. Like every hero, Amanda is thrown into crisis, questioning the fundamental premises of her life – that the reality she has believed in about how men are, how relationships with others should be, and how her emotions are affecting her work isn't reality at all!

As Amanda learns to relax into the experience, she conquers her fears, gains wisdom, and wins the keys to the great secrets of the ages, all in the most entertaining way. She is then no longer the victim of circumstances, but she is on the way to being the creative force in her life. Her life will never be the same.

The fourteen top scientists and mystics interviewed in documentary style serve as a modern day Greek Chorus. In an artful filmic dance, their ideas are woven together as a tapestry of truth. The thoughts and words of one member of the chorus blend into those of the next, adding further emphasis to the film's underlying concept of the interconnectedness of all things.

The chorus members act as hosts who live outside of the story, and from this Olympian view, comment on the actions of the characters below. They are also there to introduce the Great Questions framed by both science and religion, which divides the film into a series of acts. Through the course of the film, the distinction between science and religion becomes increasingly blurred, since we realize that, in essence, both science and religion describe the same phenomena.

The film employs animation to realize the radical knowledge that modern science has unearthed in recent years. Powerful cinematic sequences explore the inner-workings of the human brain. Quirky animation introduces us to the smallest form of consciousness in the body – the cell. Dazzling visuals reinforce the film's message in an exciting, powerful way. Done with humor, precision, and irreverence, these scenes are only part of what makes this film unique in the history of cinema, and a true box-office winner.

i saw this movie in the theater over a year ago. i really enjoyed it. it challenged me to question reality, question everything, and gave no answers to any of those questions. it presents the possibilities of quantum mechanics and turns the mystery into a fun, often hokey, was as if you were in a waking dream.

pat is in final year of his phd in genetics and laurien toured with the grateful dead for five years. it was such a rush to watch this movie with two doctors from different schools of thought: a geneticist and a healer. if you get the chance, rent this movie.

one of the most memorable parts of the movie for me was the section on the hidden messages in water as seen through the works of masaru emoto. by exposing water to various human vibrational energies and photographing the frozen water molecules using a dark field microscope, masura emoto discovered many fascinating differences in the crystalline structures. read more about the miraculous messages from water here.

the warming reminder from water was triggered in me when i saw the effect the word "thank you" had, and what it looked like frozen and captured on film. it is one of the most powerful words i have ever come across, it changes people. it makes the world a better place when people are polite to each other, especially when you are speaking to them in the language of their heart. i've learned to say "thank you" in almost 50 languages because i live here in toronto, and i have the opportunity to practice being polite in every language of the world. its the feeling of "i appreciate what you do for me" expressed in an infinite number of dialects, yet all tuning into the same energy. infinite possibilities of consciousness. its not just in some of us, it is in everyone.

if "thank you" does that to water, and we are mostly made of water, go see what it can do to people.

thank you for visiting my site. thank you for czechin out my blog. thank you for turning my world upside down and challenging me to think differently. i'm having the best time living out the answer!

namaste - i humbly bow to you honoring the light in you that is the light in me

- phenormenon \m/^_^\m/

Thursday, October 27, 2005

~* and booze...*~

last night i attended a hatha yoga class just around the corner brom my home. my best friend mel was supposed to be teaching it, but when i got there i found out that she was being held up at work, and that her friend emily would be teaching the class. i was disappointed, but that wouldn't stop me from enjoying the class. it was only myself and another woman, yvette, in addition to the instructor emily.

i found the class to be an excellent way to tune into the force...yes, everything comes back to the force for me, or in hindu, prana. there are an infinite number of ways to tune into the living force, and each one is rooted in breathing. "breathe" is the most powerful word you can say to yourself. no matter how screwed up the world is around you, you are better suited to deal with it when there is oxygen going to your brain. cause hey, if you're not breathing you're dead.

i tried to attend mel's yoga class last week with my friend lori. on my way to meet her, she called and cancelled. her reason for cancelling was that she was in the hospital. her dog had bit her and cut right through her upper lip. she was at the emergency room at toronto western waiting to get stitches. seeing as i was right outside the hospital when she called, i decided to stop in and see how she was doing. she sounded like she needed a friend on the phone. when i got there, she was so happy to see me. i could see the joy in her eyes behind her tears. but man did her dog bite her good.

i stayed with lori in the emergency room, and then watched as she got four stitches in her upper lip. i think i was more qweezy than she was when the doctor put the stitches in. it only took three hours in emergency to stitch her up. i'm glad that i was there for her.

after yoga, i rode over to a little bar around the corner of my house called magpie. my friend pen is leaving for the phillipines on monday, so he was having his going away party at magpie. it was great to see so many good people out, and having blanche de chambly on tap helped too. yah, i was kinda hung over today.

i've added the first thirty pages of my very first scrapbook to my scrapbook archive. czech out the book that started it all here!

"a candle loses nothing by lighting another candle"


- something like a phenormenon